It’s been a long 6 weeks since my surgery, but things are getting better. I’m sure now that summer is here the time will start flying again. I went and saw my doctor yesterday and he says everything looks good. Now we just wait and see if my old (not nice) friend endo comes back. He said if it does he would like to try progesterone to treat it. Anyone ever treated their endo with progesterone? I should probably go look up some endo blogs. I’m sure I can find someone talking about it somewhere out here in blog world. My other doctors have only tried to treat it with birth control. I have been on birth control since we stopped fertility treatments a year and a half ago. I’m going off the pill again. It was 8 ½ years ago when I went off the pill when we decided to start ttc. The feelings are so different this time. Back then it was so exciting and frightening to think we were taking the next step in our lives by having a child. Now I just feel dread that my endo will come back and I will have to start all over with the pain. I’m trying to think positive and hope that endo will not be back to terrorize my insides again, but it’s easier to just expect that it will be back.
Thanks to all my friends that left me the supportive comments on my last post. It’s so nice to know that I am not alone with feeling certain ways. I promise I will be stronger! I think I must revert back to living life one day at a time. Living in the short term right now feels easier.